Monday, March 19, 2012

Cornus florida



While in California this past week, my husband called me for a quick conversation. He casually mentioned that the dogwood trees in our yard were blooming and that my car might be covered in yellow pollen. Still very much in the presence of gorgeous southern California, I could not help but become beyond ecstatic to get home so I could see these gorgeous trees on our property. (Truth be told, I was not completely aware that we even had dogwoods considering that we moved in during Fall and the trees were barren; now I feel blessed with these gorgeous white flowers I can see through both my front and back windows.)

My first memory of dogwood was at the age of thirteen during a northern Georgia family vacation. It's probably during these formative years that my love for nature cultivated. I remember reading a little placard that described the history of the tree/flower, its distribution and full illustrations.

Four years ago, my uncle passed away somewhat unexpectedly. His funeral service was to be in North Carolina, and on the way, my mother and I stopped in South Carolina to visit J. He was then still a bachelor, living with an entertaining co-worker, and we were just breezing by for lunch. Well, the Palmetto State was just alive with spring buds -- dogwood, crepe myrtles, azaleas, magnolias -- as far as the eye could see. My mother insisted on going on a photo rampage up and down Forest Drive, and though just silly and fun at the time, it was exactly what our souls needed. The healing touch of God's work was ever present through the beauty he supplied to us on that day. Around the same time my uncle passed, J.'s maternal grandfather did too. And in the same month, one year prior to my uncle, my very best friend's father also left this world. In a season of so much hurt, the Lord really demonstrated that death occurs so life can be created. I don't know if the dogwoods affected J. as much as they did me, but every time I look at them, I feel a culmination of sadness and joy.

Two years later, when J. proposed to me in the summer, we both knew we wanted a Spring wedding. I specifically wanted those southern blooms to be present during our celebration -- both an ode to those we have lost, and a way to glorify the Lord that creates them. After much searching and many frustrations, He did provide a wonderful space for us to marry. Given the late Spring that year, and the torrential downpours days before the date, we know that it was only through Him that he made the sun shine bright and those saucer magnolias, azaleas, lavender, and dogwood bloom on our special day.

After a long red-eye flight, I arrived home this morning, feeling wiped and jet-lagged. I stepped out to see the sun shining on our very own dogwood tree, in full bloom, at the corner of our lot. All of those open buds, waving hello to me in the wind. Windows open, my feet propped up, I write this with the white flowers in the corner of my eye.

What a grand creation He has made. I shall rejoice and be glad in it!











Tuesday, April 26, 2011

ch-ch-chaaaanges!

Today wasn't such a good day, so I did something drastic for the one I love. I've more recently come to terms with the idea that vanity isn't all that it is cracked up to be and there are more important things to fret about than makeup and hair.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Baptism!

Today we got baptised!!

We made the decision to join our church back in November with two church membership requirements:

(1) Professing faith in Jesus Christ as my Savior, and
(2) Baptism by immersion

Though David has been a Christian since he was a child, for some reason he had never been baptised. I asked his mom about it over Thanksgiving and she just said that she never wanted to push him and she wanted it to be his choice. David and I have talked about it quite a bit since I asked Jesus into my heart February 2008...and it finally seemed like the right time, now.

David has been very nervous the last few weeks, and for me, it was kind of in the back of my mind. We arrived at 10:55 in the Baptism Suite and changed into our white clothes, then met in a central area to talk with the Baptism coordinators. It was then that it finally plugged into my brain what I was about to do...and for the next hour or so I really couldn't stop crying. I cried while Clay Smith prayed with us, I cried waiting for the worship team to end their song, I cried walking down unto the watery steps, I cried watching David profess his faith, I cried before Clay presented me to the church, I cried with a broken voice during my profession, and I literally sobbed while tearing off my dripping wet white robes in the dressing room. I think the only other day that I have cried just a little more was our wedding day.

I love that my relationship with God has always evoked such an emotional response. I know that He is truly in me when there are uncontrollable tears running down my face.. And sometimes I find myself feeling insecure (thinking about ME instead of HIM) and I love when I catch myself doing that, because it gives me yet another thing to talk to God about...

Glory be to God in the highest!

Friday, June 12, 2009

Positive Feedback

Well, guys. I just read David's first post, and he is right (of course) - I do wish he would have told me about helping Mr. Chicken Wings out... I'm so proud of him! For those of you who don't know David (though I think most of you do), he is generally pretty reserved (especially with strangers) and quiet. And his attitude toward giving change out was spot on -- which is why I usually push him to the side of me when we're walking by said homeless person. I get really uncomfortable when I have change/cash in my pocket, super guilty feelings and all. Like he said, this isn't the right attitude to have, but nonetheless we have it. Anyway, I called him right after I read it. He acted really bashful about it, but I am just really really proud of him! I hope you all can encourage him when you see him to keep that servant's mindset for a lifetime.

I've had to work three 12-hr shifts in a row, and I was a bit worried about it, but it seems as though I have pulled through fine. Not too much had happened at work until today. I got to see my first real-live-in-person Coronary Artery Bypass Graft (CABG - prounounced "cabbage") today! While our floor doesn't care for post-operative CABG patients, I went ahead and asked my nursing manager if I could observe a surgery for one our pre-operative patients. He coordinated the whole thing, so I went to work EARLY this morning so I could scrub in and watch a surgeon saw through a sternum, cut pieces of fat away from the heart, suture a triple bypass, and everything else that goes along with it. Tonight I spent almost two hours telling my entire experience (seriously, from 7:00a until 12:00p) to David. I know I could never be an OR RN, but I really like being able to watch surgeries once in a while. I was about a foot away watching a bleeding heart pulsate before my very eyes! This upcoming week will be pretty busy: for my program, we get to shadow in other areas where we are interested. So, on Monday I will be in a psychiatric/mental health ward/hospital (which is part of the hospital I work at) and on Tuesday I will be in the Emergency Department. More news on that later (I am SO EXCITED). Moving on...

Last night I met with a group of girls for a Women's Bible Study. One of the girls from Sunday School, April, has had this ongoing Bible Study on various topics, so I was able to finally join. I had such a wonderful time. Our discussion topic was faith, and it was so relieving to hear other women my age affirm things I feel in my heart. My Christian journey has been difficult this past year or so, and these past few weeks have just been really fruitful for me. I am starting to finally get the "big picture" of fellowship - that which I thought I really had with the men and women from my church in Florida. I now realize how different it is to find that in people your age, too. (This, of course, isn't to say that I'm unhappy with my experiences with Beacon back home, or even that I would change churches, but it is definitely an eye opener.) Anyway, we meet again in a few weeks and I'm really looking forward to it.

Tomorrow is Friday and I don't have work so I get to sleep in! Other planned activities: clean, go to bank, go to gym, wait for boyfriend. We have an action packed weekend - a scavenger hunt, church, tubing. (:

I feel so encouraged and motivated, so I am just praying that it shows through my actions and I can encourage and motivate others!

I hope you all have been having a nice week.

God Bless,
Rose